What lies beneath the ocean

and then the reality sang, about an unfortunate coinsidence.

"what lies beneath the mind, of a boy?"

"what boy?" i asked

"the one you've been wanting for", it replied

speechless as my mind was erased by tons of lightning

"for i have no idea, i hand it out to you.

what lies beneath the mind, of a girl?"

"what girl?" asked it, gently

"then one you've been asking for", i replied

Wasted bastard

i
feel
wasted

...

bastard.

I never get excatly what i want

i wanted to be an art director.
dan sudah apply beberapa kali ke beberapa tempat.
dan saya gamau jadi copywriter.
krn menurut saya gak ada kerjaannya.

i was wrong.
iseng2 ngelamar copywriter karena hopeless.
keterima.
dan susah juga.
jadi senang, karena pandangan saya salah.

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please go
enough to see you so
and come back tomorrow
three knocks shall follow
oh, i miss you already now

quick leave
can't help much longer please
because i can't see you to much
afraid to lost appetite
memory of you is enough


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i was going to make a song out of these but guess i'm to tone-blinded.
bad taste of song making. :P Anyone care to help? :D

Sumpah ya,

naksir orang tuh :

It's all yours to decide

gimana ya.

jadi yang namanya mengeluh sih pasti ya ada. tapi kalau nggak ngapa2in juga buat mengatasi keluhan itu, terus buat apa?

jadi ada beberapa temen yang pada intinya nggak suka kerjaannya. diperbudak. capek marah2. orang2 disitu pasti nggak ngerti situasi dia. nganggep kerjaan dia tuh gampang. intinya dia sebel lah.

Running with scissors

Running With Scissors is a 2006 Golden Globe-nominated comedy-drama film based on the memoir of the same name by Augusten Burroughs directed by Ryan Murphy.

The film is a semi-autobiographical account of Burroughs' childhood. His mother (Annette Bening), perceiving an ill-fated upbringing, places him under the care of her unorthodox psychiatrist, Dr. Finch (Brian Cox), the eccentric patriarch of an oddball family.At the age of 12, Burroughs (played by Joseph Cross) finds himself in Victorian squalor living an unconventional youth among the doctor’s family, and is subject to irregular visits by his increasingly unsound mother.

What makes me happy

just enjoy every second, every minutes, every hours, everyday, months; of good, amazing, wonderful, even bad, awful, and disaster moment of your life,

by singing.
by humming.
by acting.
by making funny faces.
by imagining great thing would happen.
by making a good statement.
by doing a selfish me-time.
by sleeping.
by saying no.
by thanking for everything, even if it just, "thank God that i could poop, today.."
by taking every chances.
by writing a diary.
by creating a scenario before you sleep.
by giving.
by hoping for nothing in return.
by listening to music.
by drawing.
by doing things, manually.
by not being lazy.
by appreciating own health.
by drinking water.
by putting photos everywhere.
by sharing.

and
by loving and caring your loved ones.


Thank God i am happy.
at least i try.

i could sing..sing..sing..singg

Battle in seattle

never thought that stuart townsend, my first vampire crush, had made this kind of movie.
i like one scene in it where charlize had to loose her unborn baby. gasp! playing in a movie that your husband produced? never been better.

Evening

evening